Archive | March 2005

Revelation

The cat’s out of the bag.

For those who might be curious, it’s the cheapest model, the 512 MB one. 120 songs, PC and Mac. The funny thing is, I can get it to sync songs from iTunes from my Windows laptop without a glitch, but have not managed to connect it to my PowerMac G4, where the majority of my song collection lies.
Anyway, it’s nice lah… small enough to fit in your pocket, and light enough to hang it on your neck without too much interference. I usually slip it inside my shirt over my undershirt, and only let the headphones hang out. It’s good enough to keep my favorite 100 songs, and accompany me on the bus or akward moments.

Belated Travel Report

A few days ago, I made a long post with photos and everything, about the trip to Bangkok. When I finally finished the post and clicked the “publish post” button, …. the network went down, and so I lost the post. The entire post. So… I’ll just put up the pictures here, and a few captions.


the living room of the apartment four of us rented for the week in Bangkok. It was HUGE!


The dome of The Dome, where the artist’s showcase on the first night occured.

An alleyway of the Chaktuchak weekend market in Bangkok.

One of the main roads that run around the Chaktuchak market.

While in transit at KLIA, I had time to go online and check email and upload these pictures, through Wi-Fi.

Another view of KLIA, with the laptop in the bottom left-hand corner.

The Aftermath Of The Long Week

I’m too tired to even start telling my story for the past week; I had time to go online but never really had the energy or ideas to post something. When usually I take time to take pictures on my phone, I never really had the energy to do that either. The conference took every effort to keep my mind working, concentrating and processing issues; and at some points, staying awake. The sessions I participated in were up to a day longer than everybody else, so when all my office friends were out having the time of their life in Bangkok, I was still cooped up in a meeting and dinner until Friday night.
The conference itself was very useful, and it gave me a lot of information and renewed energy to do my job properly; because, as you may have seen in this blog, I’ve been kind of winging it. Thus, when I’m back in Jakarta, the war will start all over again.
I only had time to go around Bangkok today, and it was more spent looking for stuff for friends and loved ones at home; going around Chaktuchak (the weekend market), Siam Square, Siam Centre, MBK and Chit Lom; and resulting in severe foot pains. Once I reached the apartment that four of us were staying in, I immediately took a prolonged warm bath to soote the aching muscles.
The trip was great, but all I can think about now is going home, pulling through the week ahead and getting some delayed rest. Also, let’s just say there’s something that’s making me feel good these days, but I don’t want to spill anything until something really happens. I mean, really as in real life. Yeah, real life, and not in my head for once.
Next week will also mark the end of something graciously self-educating, although coming with it’s share of pain and happiness. At least I think it will end, we’ll have to see, won’t we?

I’ll tell some more details of the past weeks when I have fully recuperated.
As usual, I’m keeping things ambiguous… to save myself some embarrasment.

The Day In-Between

I just finished half of what was going to be a hectic 2 weeks; the first week chasing a lot of stuff at the office and helping out at the Java Jazz Festival (to the point I did not get to see any acts as I was on duty all the time), today is my one day spent at the office before I head out to Bangkok for a regional conference. I have to compile all my files for preparation to present and share information, I have to tie up some loose ends before I leave the office for the week (there are a few, but they are urgent anyway), and I have to collect and buy everything I need for the trip. I’m out of body spray and hair gel, so I’ll have to buy some later. I have to wrap up 2 key meetings later today so I can bring new information to the conference. I have to… oh, man… there’s so much to do, and I don’t have the energy to do it!
I’m not even looking forward to the trip to Bangkok, as it will be filled with meetings and the like, and I just feel very unprepared. I am feeling that my division here in Indonesia has not done enough, has not done much compared to the other countries, and I feel rather insignificant. Of course, there are good reasons to the lack of activity in some areas, but still…
Not to mention the fact that the conferences take all day and would be a toll to the mind and body, trying to absorb all that information, when all my mind and body wants to do is rest. I have not had a real break for almost 6 months now, and it’s taking the toll. Supposedly my participation in the Java Jazz event should of refreshed my mind, but it only augmented the fact that lately I’ve been very sick of my usual workload and material. The event reminded me of what I used to do a lot in my college years, and how much I loved being in the field, tired or not. It’s not that I’m a 100% field man, I have mileage in the corporate circles too, but since what is handled is usually completely different, lately I have been thinking that I do prefer working in the field. Highlights of my usual work week is usually when I have a meeting outside the office, not sitting in front of a computer typing emails, doing administration stuff, making presentations and the like.
I just feel tired; the body is a bit tired but actually refreshed from all the energy expended, but the mind still just isn’t working. All I’m doing is looking for shortcuts to speed up my work.
Ok, time for chocolate again…

Helping Out For Myself

I’ve been under considerable stress at the office, and perhaps overflowing to my personal life as well, because work is pushing me to do many things, a lot of them probably inconceivable for me to do a few years ago, and still scaring the hell out of me right now if I can do it, and personal life is a mess. Kind of just existing day to day, you know.
It has always been good therapy for me when I’m in the dumps, I try to help other people out or make other people happy, so I can give myself a bit of self-worth, and get my mind off things for the moment. So, many times I find myself in strange or akward situations, and since I’m depressed a lot, many people see me as a helpful person, when in fact I just do it for myself. Well, in most cases it’s the will to help first, with an added value of good therapy.
So…. right now, I’m sitting at a commitee office, one trying to hold an international music festival which starts… in 2 days, helping out with small stuff here and there. I really want to help out, as it seems there are a lot of things that haven’t been done, and my helping actually makes a difference, and… it keeps my mind of things going on at the office and personal life. Having feasible short-term goals to do, or small steps or challenges to overcome, is refreshing, and also helps with your self-esteem whenever you feel you aren’t doing well at anything, you’re no good to anyone, or you’re forever trapped in the good-for-nothing mode.
The excitement of something new is always a good boost.