Ketika

ketika ku rasakan sudah ada ruang di hatiku yang kau sentuh
dan ketika kusadari sudah tak selalu indah cinta yang ada
mungkin memang ku yang harus mengerti
bila ku bukan yang ingin kau miliki
salahkah ku bila
kau lah yang ada di hatiku

adakah ku singgah di hatimu
mungkin kah kau rindukan diriku
adakah ku sedikit di hatimu
bilakah ku mengganggu harimu
mungkin kah kau inginkan adaku
akankah ku sedikit di hatimu

bila memang ku yang harus mengerti
mengapa cintamu tak dapat ku miliki
salahkah ku bila kau lah yang ada di hatiku

bila cinta kita tak akan tercipta
ku hanya ingin sekedar tuk mengerti
adakah diriku singgah di hatimu
dan bila kah kau tau
kau lah yang ada di hatiku

adakah ku di hati mu

kalau mau jujur, aku sangat merindukanmu
[lagunya Maliq ‘n D’Essentials]

Ikhlas

ketika aku bangun pagi, rasa hampa yang biasanya ada tertelan oleh sebuah perasaan lain; yang kemarin-kemarin aku rasakan seperti jatuh cinta, walaupun tidak jelas aku jatuh cinta pada siapa; namun pagi ini aku rasakan bahwa perasaan itu justru adalah sakit yang sudah teredam, sebuah sakit yang sudah diiringi senyum yang terlatih. Sebuah senyum yang mengikhlaskan cinta maupun mara bahaya, sehingga timbul perasaan yang tenang, dan anehnya berjalan ke arah senang juga.

aku seperti tidak tahu lagi harus berbuat apa, hanya yang terbaik, dan sisanya aku ikhlaskan dan relakan saja.

Rise In The Morning

One of my most recent habits in the morning, is waking up a bit earlier than usual and just relaxing at home. I wake up, do the usual morning rituals, and turn on my computer to go online. I do whatever work there is to be done that can be done, chat with anybody who’s online, and browse a little here and there.
I leave the lights on at a minimum, and just turn on one of the various reading lights in the room, keeping the horrid neon room light off. I turn on the news on TV just so I can skim through the headlines while I’m doing something else, and as usual, nothing of great significance is covered. It’s usually some crime story or protest of rising tariffs, if not sports news. Well, no news is good news, I guess.
Almost simultaneously, a couple of my friends have been asking, “So, how’s the ‘scene’? Are you going out with anybody, lately?” I say “Zero.”

Maybe I’ll stay here for just a bit…

Well, Now…

Whatever the truth is, it may be best that it stays hidden. I have no idea what it is, anyway, and have no intent of finding out… The words did their part, and the coast is clearer because of it. Somehow, you will never understand the entire truth anyway, as I do not either.

Case closed.

Kehilangan

tiap hari kita akan kehilangan sesuatu, karena tak ada hal yang di dunia ini yang abadi, kecuali perubahan itu sendiri. tapi mengapa, bila semua orang menyadari ini, budaya manusia begitu mengacu pada sistem kepemilikan? mengapa harus memiliki apabila apa yang kau miliki hanya ada untuk sementara?

mungkin, karena dalam kesementaraan terdapat harapan…
tapi apa yang terjadi bila kita kehilangan harapan?

Before I Go Out

Fear of losing something or someone important is greater than fear of death. But if you fear losing something, do you actually own it beforehand?

Perhaps I Shouldn’t Have

So… despite some amount of work I had to do, last night I went to meet my college friends for a long-overdue session of… KARAOKE! The venue was Inul Vista, where you can record a video of you singing… not that we wanted to anyway (oh, perhaps except some of us). We chose that place as it was smack in the middle of town, so easier access for everybody.

So we sang into the night… and now I am veeeery sleepy.

If That’s What It Takes

Comfort me
From a world where no one cares
Where the words turn into cages
And memories cut like glass

I closed my eyes on you
Put the blames on myself
The weight is on my shoulders
Throw my heart in the wishing well

I’ve got to face and tame my demons
I know it’s hard to start over again,
yeah, I know.
Through trials and tribulations
Salvation’s like a long lost friend

I’ll take back all of the hurt
For your love I’ve taken for granted
I’ll do anything to change
If that’s what it takes

No use in pretending
Ain’t no pride in it all
A cure for independence
Is when you’re standing in the cold

Have I used, have I used my chances
Have my bridges all been burned
Give me a sign of inspiration
To find a stone that’s left unturned

I see a distant promise of Eden
Lifting my spirits so high
If I can break out of the circle
Gonna kiss that carousel goodbye

I’ll take back all of the hurt
For your love I’ve taken for granted
I’ll do anything to change
If that’s what it takes

I’ve got to see a promise of Eden
Lifting my spirits so high
If I can break, break out of the circle
Gonna kiss that carousel goodbye

I’ll take back all of the hurt
For your love I’ve taken for granted
I’ll do anything to change, baby
If that’s what it takes

Take back all of the hurt
For your love I’ve taken for granted
I’ll do anything to change
If that’s what it takes
If that’s what it takes

[Mr. Big]

Wanna Give It Some Thought?

You always say how you hate me doing this and that.
You always say how you don’t like this person or that, that I’ve been hanging out with.
Always little insignificant protests.
And… somehow, I am also insignificant.

Maybe you wanna give it some thought? There may be some significance there.

Mind Trick

I missed the opportunity
to get you babe to stay with me.
Never thought, I’d regret the excuses that I’ve made
like a song,it will fade

If there’s music in the night,
And it’s really, really right,
It’s the only thing I need.
it intoxicates your mind
All your troubles left behind
So come on and take my lead.
it’s not just me who feels it
music plays a mind trick
watch me forget about missing you

so I put my feelings out to dry
love, one day again,
I’ll have to try.
falling out, making up
it seems such a silly game
why do I never gain?

If there’s music in the night,
And it’s really, really right,
It’s the only thing I need.
it intoxicates your mind
All your troubles left behind
So come on and take my lead.
it’s not just me who feels it
music plays a mind trick
watch me forget about missing you

na na na’s

If there’s music in the night,
And it’s really, really right,
It’s the only thing I need.
it intoxicates your mind
All your troubles left behind
So come on and take my lead.
it’s not just me who feels it
music plays a mind trick
watch me forget about missing you

[sung by Jamie Cullum]